Miami!

It's going to be a great week. All I have to do is get through 4 days of work. Then J and I are off to beautiful Miami to watch the New Orleans Saints beat the Miami Dolphins! J sees this the other way but I have a feeling I will be doing my happy dance on the plane back home! I need a vacation so bad. Things are nothing but stressful at work right now. Our house is getting to the point where we have to watch ever step, and the holidays are around the corner. Besides all this I am working on getting things together to launch my business next year. So things are quite crazy. On top of all this we are trying very hard to get pregnant before J starts school in January. So yup we are a little busy. I even had a dream the other night we had 5 babies at the same time. However each had something horribly wrong with them. Scared the crap out of me. I'm pretty sure if nothing happens by February then we will just put all this on hold for a few years and then look into adoption, if we are up for it by then. We are starting to think and accept we are going to be the aunt and uncle and that's about it. I was just not made to have babies. So we are working on wrapping our heads around this concept and moving on. I know 3 years isn't that long in the world of trying but I have always had this nagging feeling even as a young girl that it would never happen to me. I pushed these thoughts aside for most of my life but I am finally being forced to accept them. I just feel bad for J. I know this wasn't the plan but I can't help what my body can't do.