Friday, December 18, 2009

Time to grade myself!

A year ago I wrote my 2009 list of goals! Time to see if I got them all......

1. To have more of a positive attitude towards things I can't control. B-Still working on this.

2. To have a little more faith in me! B

3. To trust in myself. B

4. To let it go when my husband leaves things around. C

5. To spend more time with my dogs. A

6. To work my ass off for the things I want, and not to take no for an answer! A

7. To accept those for who they are and not let them get to me.

D- I wont lie this one kicked my ass this year!

8.To try to let go of the guilt I've held on to about losing the baby. B- I can say I am doing a 100% better than I was whenI wrote this!

9. To teach my sister all the life lessons I can remember for being 16.

C I am striving so hard to help her become a great person

10. To take a stand in something when I truly believe in it, and not be scared! A+

11. To be grateful for all the things I have! A+ I am constantly thinking about all I have that others don't and am grateful for a wonderful spouse who helps me every day!

12. To get a hobby! A++ I am doing photography! My #1 goal for 2010 is to get my website up and rolling so I can actively get more involved and possible enter a few contest!


So all in all it was a pretty good year. Defiantly a turn around from the last. I won;t lie I have 2 goals next year....

1. Get my photography rolling, even if it's just in the hobby stage.

2. Get Pregnant or get a better idea of what is possible for us on that front!

I plan on just posting pictures for the rest of my blogging for the year. A few of our new house and maybe some from the massive get togethers with my families. I am going home for Christmas. I can't tell you how excited I am for a good ole fashioned Cajun Christmas!


Thursday, December 17, 2009

WoooHoooo

If you can't tell from the new ticker. I am uber excited about January 26th! Not only is it a month before my 27th birthday but it's the day we get a new doctor! My current OBGYN left the practice. I just loved her but she just wasn't as aggressive as I would have liked on our fertility issues. I was told today our new doctor likes to tackle these things and at least find out IF there is an issue. Like I've always said, I can sit back and relax about this if I know nothings wrong. So let the count down start!

Monday, December 14, 2009

Top Baby Names of the Future

Wow my husband was dead on!


Girls

1. AVA—Glamour Girl name beats out Eva along with other A names for top spot.

2. AMELIA—New spin on new top name Emma and longtime No. 1

3. ELLA—All names—ella—Isabella, Gabriella, Stella—have been popular, but Ella itself gets the most attention.

4. VIOLET—Purple-y flower name

5. LILA—The double L is the winningest name sound of the next decade.

6. GRACE—Simple, cool, and well, graceful

7. RUBY—Sassy choice with a rich jewel undertone

8. MATILDA—Unlikely hottie, the old-fashioned name

9. HARPER—Boyish choice with literary ties to (female) author Harper Lee.

10. EVELYN—Grandma name just beginning to enjoy a revival, thanks to the Eva/Ava craze.

Boys

1. ETHAN—Biblical nice guy name finishes first.

2. AIDEN—Traditional Irish name trounces rhyming copycats Jayden, Brayden, and Caden

3. MILO—Parents like the upbeat, energetic O-ending.

4. CHARLIE—Unisex nicknames are finding their way onto the birth certificate.

5. OSCAR—Odd Couple name gains wide acceptance.

6. RYDER—Western cowboy name gallops up the list.

7. CASH—The failed credit economy has lasting impact on baby names

8. RIVER—Parents go green with nature names

9. KAI—A winning combination of gentle and exotic

10. MAXIMUS—A name bound for maximum exposure.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Yup I'm still here!

I know gone for a while. So much has been going on. Family in, getting ready to close on the new house. Mass craziness. I do have to say however, normally I would be all stressed and freaking out. No I have had his since of overwhelming calmness roll over me in the past week. Projects have totally gone to shit at work all of which are on the part of other parties, and I haven't gotten mad, upset, angry once! I know crazy right. This is so not me. I don't know who this calm nice, HAPPY person is. I am singing Christmas songs and enjoying life. That angrier bitter person is no longer here. I hope she's gone and not just hiding somewhere. Now I know I've said things on this line before but this is truly different. How I know this? Well usually when I am in this good mood is in the middle of my cycle and then I get all mopey and depressed right before and at the beginning of my period. I started yesterday with no disappointment, no bitterness, no depression or rage. I have truly turned over a new leaf. Another reason, there was no spotting the past 2 months. When I am stressed and such I spot a day before I start. Finally, I am truly OK! I am not bitter about my miscarriage anymore. It still makes me sad and I still think about it almost everyday but I am not mad or bitter anymore. I see all the great things we've done or the opportunities we have had that we would have never been able to do or take if I had carried to term, and I am content.
I am truly seeing the good in the world again and am happy. Truly honest to god happy. I feel as if the light inside of me is shining and shining bright not only bright but a bright yellow like the sun! I wonder if that means anything. I will have to look that up!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Ho Hum...


Yeah right. SO much is going on. My parents and sister are flying up this weekend to stay the week. So J and I had to stock the pantry and fridge. We had nothing! We also went check on the house. We have cabinets and they were painting the walls when we were there.
J is in the great state of TX this week on business. I hate when he leaves. At least he will be back soon. Work is staying busy.
On the flip side I think I am getting another ovarian cyst. My side has been hurting the past day like it did the last time I had one of these stupid things. It gets and and then goes away. We will see what happens. We close on the house Dec 11th! SO very excited about that! Well better get back to it!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Hormones Suck!

I've said once and I know I will say it many times again. Especially when they are Aunt Flo hormones!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I am not going to jinx this!

I've always said I wouldn't jinx it and I wouldn't talk about it, but I am having those feelings again. The same ones I had a little over a year ago. So let's all cross our fingers, toes, make a wish and say a little pray. I haven't tested and I haven't said anything to ANYONE! We will leave it all at that!

Friday, October 30, 2009

Hello out there!

I am here. I have been dealing with massive snow and getting ready for Halloween. I promise pictures next week!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Sneaky Sneaky

I won't lie, I am a tracker. I have an invisible tracker attached to this blog. I just like to see who's coming and going, which topics really get people going and on here. Well it was fairly quite until 2 events. I was my 14 days past ovulation post, and my post yesterday. WOW! If my blog was a person I would be knocked out cold from the amount of hits I've gotten over those 2 post. I just check it once a month so I really don't know what sparks interest until weeks later. Just so happens I checked it yesterday and a spike doesn't even start to explain what happened. I've also got a lot of blind comments. One's that just went straight to my e-mail and weren't posted on here. Thanks for all the encouragement. It really means a lot to me. It also means a lot to know I am not the only one dealing with these issues. What I would love is to hear from someone who had a M/C and had issues getting PG again. That would be great!
Anyway, I just wanted to say to everyone, please feel free to post comments on here. Nothing really bothers me. In fact I love to hear from everyone. It's nice feed back even on my horrible vent post. Love B

Monday, October 19, 2009

Miami!

It's going to be a great week. All I have to do is get through 4 days of work. Then J and I are off to beautiful Miami to watch the New Orleans Saints beat the Miami Dolphins! J sees this the other way but I have a feeling I will be doing my happy dance on the plane back home! I need a vacation so bad. Things are nothing but stressful at work right now. Our house is getting to the point where we have to watch ever step, and the holidays are around the corner. Besides all this I am working on getting things together to launch my business next year. So things are quite crazy. On top of all this we are trying very hard to get pregnant before J starts school in January. So yup we are a little busy. I even had a dream the other night we had 5 babies at the same time. However each had something horribly wrong with them. Scared the crap out of me. I'm pretty sure if nothing happens by February then we will just put all this on hold for a few years and then look into adoption, if we are up for it by then. We are starting to think and accept we are going to be the aunt and uncle and that's about it. I was just not made to have babies. So we are working on wrapping our heads around this concept and moving on. I know 3 years isn't that long in the world of trying but I have always had this nagging feeling even as a young girl that it would never happen to me. I pushed these thoughts aside for most of my life but I am finally being forced to accept them. I just feel bad for J. I know this wasn't the plan but I can't help what my body can't do.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

I know bad blogger

I swear I will give a good update very soon. Things are just crazy right now! Dentist, football, house, Grad school, pups, family. I need a vacation! Give me a day or so! Oh and I am so over this relax and it will happen thing. But I swear I will give a big, good, long update soon!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Walk Through!

We have our first walk through today. It is for structural components. I am so excited. It will actually start looking like a house. This is after we have brunch with the family. I am up to early this morning. You know when you wake up and start thinking about something? The your done with sleeping no matter how hard you try. Yup, that's me this morning. The weather is starting to cool off here. They are prediction a bad winter here and our first snowfall for Oct 16-18 somewhere. I love this time of year. I am going to make a gumbo in the next few weekend. Gumbo and cold weather. You can't ask for anything better!
So I am officially frustrated with the baby thing again. That's all. I am going to leave it at that.
Well I better get going I have a few things to take care of before my hubby gets out of bed. I just realized I hate the word hubby. It sounds so newlywed. We are by far past that stage. Anyway I need to go get the whites out of the dryer before J gets pissy because he has no undershirts. Talk later!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Sorry

Sorry for lack of post, but I can't even describe the massive amounts of horrible this week has been. I am still so pissed about it that I just don't even want to talk about it for the fact of I am finally starting to get in a better mood about the situation. I know very vague. I swear it will be better next week.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Well that didn't last long.

I have freakin' baby fever again. Like really bad. I believe my baby fever temperature is like 104.5. Yup close to losing it I would say. I was really doing well for a while. Like a good while for me and now not so much. At least its a good baby fever and not "I really want a baby but know it will never happen," kind. OK plug your ears if you really don't want to details. Ready? I am warning you. I have jumped my husbands bones every chance I have gotten in the past week. My sex drive is through the freaking roof right now. Crazy I know. It hasn't been like this since I got off the pill. My poor husband has no idea what hit him but is enjoying it.

Ok you can take your your hands out of your ears. So that's my latest saga. So I am not pouting yet, but its a comin'! I am doing good on the positive thing but I have a feeling when nothing happens this month my husbands going to get the full on sob story from me. He's had gotten really good at it.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

100th post!

Yeah it''s the 100th post! That is really cool.
Just been working on the photography thing and working on building a website! I am getting really excited. I just need to get my new camera. I wish this chick would finally send it to me. Auhhh.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I had the stupid dream again last night. Not only was it the pregnancy test dream, in the dream I kept looking at the test for a day because it kept looking like the results kept changing. I hate this dream! Yet I keep having it every couple of months. Why do my dreams tortures me? I do really good about the whole letting it go thing until this kind of thing happens. Then I spend the day thinking about it and getting riled up about it and then I have to spend the next day working on letting it go again.
The craziest part of the dream though was that my sister had to go into surgery and I had to go in with her for some reason because I was the only one in the family who had worked in an OR before. As soon as I walk into the OR with my unconscious sister the doctor walks in and says I knew your were pregnant before you did. He was just a complete ass. I was standing there in shock holding my sisters cold feet to chest to warm them up. I know there was so much more but that's all I remember.

Friday, September 11, 2009

8 Years Later

9-11 is a date that I will never forget. It's the day my generation lost it's innocence . Thank you to all who risk their lives to keep us safe at home. We will never forget!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Quick Update!

We just got word they are going to start framing the house this week! Yeah. Now for the marathon of a week.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Wow!


How things get so crazy so fast! So I have been living out of 2 places for the past 2 weeks. Staying at my in-laws house while their gone has made me realize how much I missed being in my own house. I know for certain we made the correct decision to build. So we have 2 weeks down and 1 to go. I am so ready to be in one place again.
Next week however will not be getting any easier. J is leaving Tuesday for business and won't be back until Friday. Friday I am going to an industry event that evening. I am so excited. My local IIDA (International Interior Design Association) is putting on an event called Pret a Porter.


This above was actually made out of flooring-VCT (Vinyl COmposite Tile.) The stuff you see in most hospitals!


Vendors team up with designers and the designers have to make an outfit for a runway show only out of vendors materials. For example. If a designer gets the vendor Interface then they have to make an outfit completely out of carpet. How fun does that sound! Wow I just realized how much of a design nerd I am. After the show there is a huge cocktail party. Networking, networking! You never know who'll you will meet!

So while I am out at this fun event 2 friends of mine are going to be out at my loft getting ready for the party we are throwing the Saturday night on my roof. We are having a cocktail party on the roof of downtown. How much fun is this going to be! So I am busy preparing for this also. Then we are going to a HUGE football party the SUnday for NFL kickoff.

So in other words wish me good luck to survive the next week. It's going to be a busy one!.



Oh I am going check progress of the house tomorrow. Should have a new picture!

Monday, August 31, 2009

Ta Dah!


Our progress so far. We have a man cave!

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Quick Update!

The foundation has been poured. I believe that includes the basement also. Going take pictures tomorrow. I just got the cord for my camera so new pictures soon! I promise.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

So Excited!

House pictures to come in a day or two I promise.

In the mean time check out my new site!